chickens!

from Tony, originally uploaded by nirbhao.

the harassment is beginning to pay off.

people are pretty awesome. these designs thrill me. thanks for participating. this is going to be a wonderful project.

you, too, can join the party.

buy me things

no, seriously.

Koigu mill ends

so perfect for my sock yarn blanket.... sooooo expensive....

in less greedy news, I received the hand-dyed swap yarn. I am currently dying of awesome.

I am picturing what I am going to take to the hospital (especially if they make me go early): tons of yarn, all of my case books, probably my camera because I am a nerd like that, and maybe some pyjamas. haha

I prefer the solid colors

, originally uploaded by nirbhao.

garter is insanely faster than stockinette. I keep making people squeeze it, because it is super squishy and nice.

/ emo

I've been doing a lot of sleeping, whining, bitching, moaning, complaining, pouting, sleeping, being hungry, and studying lately.

actually, I've been really good about studying.

TODAY!
I am going to take pictures and *maybe* play with clay. and make delicious .... cream of wheat. also, Shane will probably come hang out with me. huzzah!

poor coping mechanisms

I always create boy problems when my health goes sideways. this is bad for a number of reasons:
1. it doesn't actually make the health issues go away,
2 it dredges up unnecessary drama, and, most importantly,
3. I hurt people that I care about.

I understand that you can't handle it. I wish I didn't have to. I did my best to not. I'm sorry.

buck up

we always have the option to avoid.

you encouraged me to confront my shit. I thought you would be able to do the same.

dear facebook people

I reactivated my facebook account. again. I've actually been reactivated more than a few hours now, so we're working on a new record.

reasons I don't like social network websites:
1. seriously who has time for this bullshit?
2 everyone can see everything. to quote the resplendent william shatner, "that's too much knowledge!"
3. life becomes a performance. it's an exercise in self-spin. which angle of my personality makes me look best?
4. I'm a real person and would like to interact like one. it makes me sad when I am in reality with another person and that person pays more attention to the internet than anyone or anything around.
5. e-hugs are nowhere near as awesome as the real thing.

plus I have this bizarre compulsion to add as a "friend" anyone I know even remotely. then we don't interact and I get sad.

silly, I know.